Looking for Leo

I want to write to Leo.
I want to talk with God.
I want to hear God talk to me.
I want God to wrap His arms around me and tell me
how everything is according to a Great Good Plan.
I want talking with God to help me know I am who I am supposed to be.
I am anxious.
Nothing satisfies.
Nothing draws me to itself.
Except God.
I want God.
I want God to fill me with His Communing-Spirit.
I want to connect with God.
So why do I want to write to Leo?
Who is Leo?
Leo is God inside of me.
Leo is my Lion.
Leo is the lion of my visions.
Leo is The One Who could devour me but doesn't.
Leo is Other Who Makes Himself Intimate with me.
Leo is where and how within myself I connect with God.
Leo is my Integrity-ability.
Leo is tamed only by Christ.
And even Christ chooses not to tame Leo.
Why is this?
Christ calls me to abandon my entirely-known self.
Leo is the enfleshment of my abandonment.
Lord, help me meet Leo.